“You are an advanced version of me”
I had a light conversation with my mother sometime last week.
We were checking in on each other and randomly talking about our pets — the ones I have and the ones I got for her.
I like how interested my mum is in my pets. If anything, I learned how to cater to pets from my mum. From a very young age, we have always had cats in our home. As I grew up, we added dogs. Seeing how much loved her pets taught me so much about vulnerability and softness.
During the conversation, we were talking about someone and I highlighted how swift and sharp this person is. My mum laughed so hard and said, ‘you mean, just like you?’
I asked, ‘do you think I am all that?’
She replied and said, “Of course! You are just like me, but actually, you are an advanced version of me.’’
I had a wide smile on my face and my heart was doing a happy jump.
She added, “You decide what you want, then you go for it. I really admire that, and you have done more than I could ever do in this lifetime”.
I have reflected over this for a while now and I cannot seem to wrap my head around the weight of this statement she made.
It is truly incredible for me, that my mum would think so highly of me. As a young girl, I have always seen my mum as unstoppable. I regarded my mum’s strength, consistency and zeal as something that was beyond me. I never thought I could match up because I truly enjoyed ease.
To hear her say these words soothes me so much. To know that the way I choose to move through life with ease and softness, is still strong and even more. I struggle to acknowledge my courage and zeal as half of the time, my heart is pumping so fast. I usually fear the unknown outcomes but I still garner the courage to face the situation in the way I can make room for.
Today, I am an advanced version of the greatest woman I have ever known. The greatest listener I have ever known. The greatest force of strength and courage I have ever encountered.
The unrefined woman who could push so many spaces.
The woman who allowed me to re-birth her in so many ways even though she gave me life.
I am an amplified version of a great woman.
